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I never liked my B’day until I reached mid age when usually people don’t care about this day. If I ask what’s special today, what’s the plan then usual reply is… “Hey I am old now… It’s not so important to celebrate this day.” And I wonder if really true or just a pretend to show off elderliness to others. Because they get the warm wishes from their family, friends and loved once their face would glow with its warmth. I have never seen anyone so far who had not enjoyed getting wishes from people around them that means it’s really a happy day of your life then why to hide this child like desire from bursting out on your face and in your every action. I hated my B’day as it falls in March. In school and college days this day would be either an exam day or summer vacation. So I hardly had a chance to really celebrate it like my other siblings. I would be the one to celebrate and attend others B’day celebrations but when it comes to me then no one would be around and

We have been looking for each other Since we were unborn, unknown in this world Now when we found each other again I think of the days we spent without holding each other’s hand We should cry like babies whenever we want I missed your childhood and you missed mine We should laugh like innocent child I missed your innocence and you missed mine We should be crazy and curious once again We missed seeing each other destroying toys We should drive the bicycle and fall once again We missed each other’s falling when we drove it first time Many more things to do now once again  You and I are there to see each other every time Then we go through the beautiful roads of this world Before we go back to the origin of us  Happy Valentine's Day!!

One day I woke with a dream Everyday it keeps me on my toes  Dreaming keeps me going And going keeps me dreaming Dwelling upon my desires I understand how much I hold When I get tired and can’t walk alone Dream tells that I don’t love it anymore Being in my thoughts it’s so powerful I think of the day, when it comes true Passion turns it to reality and says you dream more I passionately dream and I love my dreams too

These days while I am staying in Samoa, most of the time I am in the company of myself with some scattered thoughts, faded memories from past and some bitterness in heart. Its cyclone seasons over here, heavy rain falls, strong winds, foggy weather and most of the time its hot n humid. On the day when it’s not raining; In the morning I get up and go to the window which has a mesmerizing view of mountains with the crown of clouds over them, its 6:30 am and still bit dark and with less visibility due to fog all around. Seeing the fog my longing for cold weather tempts me to open the balcony and stand there to admire this beautiful dawn. Opened balcony and what I get is hot breeze all over my face. Sometimes, actually many times in life we face same situation. Life shows a beautiful picture for you to believe as its reality and then you can’t think anymore because your thoughts are foggy now. Foggy thoughts don’t allow you to see the reality. Same was happening to

Faded memories of you Or its just you fading in time  I try to see you, recognize you But dint remember how do u look like Maybe i loved u for a while when I was far Far from freedom; my eternal love for life Even though we were together for sometime I was always in space of my longing for life Why do you desire to possess me? When you know that I am the dust of memories One day it would be blown away in the air And fly in the open blue sky